why do I bother?
why even make the effort?
I wasn't even expecting the funk since spring is here...
Maybe it's my long lingering cold,
that leaves me with no energy by the evening time.
Or the six day work weeks,
and the stress of doing other people's jobs,
in addition to mine.
The Times Union blog.
Wasting time on Facebook.
The Bicycle Coalition (and upcoming Bike Month).
The Bicycle Rescue.
Monthly gallery shows.
Trying to network and expand into new galleries.
Trying to work with other photographers,
(portrait & wedding) to grow.
Attempting to assemble a new website,
and photo site for that all important self promotion.
All that falls behind:
caring for the kids.
cleaning the house.
taking care of the dogs (and cats).
Dr. and vet appointments.
packing lunches in the morning.
doing dishes and laundry in between all of the above,
and not having the appropriate response
when someone asks...
why I couldn't do a task that only takes five minutes.
I needed to put together a movie night at the local theater.
And I said FUCK IT.
Who cares if I spend what little free time I have,
to give them something to decide to NOT show up to.
And after NEVER missing a bicycle coalition meeting,
I almost didn't go (I did call out sick to the Bicycle Rescue one).
Who cares if I go?
What difference does it make?
I'll never seriously race.
I question if conditions for cyclists will ever improve.
I'm just some guy who is content riding his bike to work,
and riding around town.
Then I thought,
"maybe I should start saving for a car"
what would I get?
And I spent the last day tooling around online.
(what I found will be tomorrow's post).
And I found myself thinking
"I should just give up on biking"
"I should just focus on photography"
"why waste my time on the blogs, no one reads this"
but it started settling in last night on my ride home from work,
as I meandered around potholes,
and hopped over manholes, sorry,
I ride simply because it's fun.
And as I sat at the Bicycle Coalition meeting tonight,
I sat at a table of people who have been hurt by cars,
who lost their rights as citizens of the city,
simply because they choose to ride a bike.
We all share the same fire.
My kids deserve the right to be safe and respected while on a bike,
guess there's gonna be a Bike Movie night this year.
One for the weekend from Henrique A. de Melo e Silva. - Because if you had a name like that, wouldn’t you want the world to see it? Also, girls rule.
11 hours ago