changes

there will always be change.
Yes, I know that's a given.
But with everything going on in life,
it'ld be nice if some things could just be drama free.
For over two years all I've wanted is to just show up to work,
do my job,
and go home afterwards.
I never saw saw 'hostile work environment',
or 'must endure inappropriate comments' in the job description.

Now my joke has been,
I'm going to get a job as a heavy duty mechanic,
since I spend so much time under a bus.
(the bus I constantly get thrown under, get it?)

Sarcastically speaking, it's AWESOME that the economy is so bad,
the prevailing attitude is "if you don't like it, then leave".

So it was an awakening of sorts,
time to look at my life,
and figure out what options exist.
It has also helped keep things in check,
like the wanting of a new bike,
or more like - what can we do for a family vacation this year?
Where are we at with our bills?
Do we really need THAT, or THIS?
What things can we do without?

With both art and bikes,
my April and May are already getting booked full.
But with each event,
I'm trying to look at the possibility of growth,
networking,
'baby steps',
a backup plan,
or plan B.

As uncomfortable as change may be,
it should be welcomed.

It's just draining.